At the same time ya'll.
At the same time.
Creating things has always been my heart.*
So recently I submitted one of my many ideas to The Figment Festival, and they liked it, and they welcomed it into their event.
My idea is well on it's way to becoming a real live thing, the Selfie Portrait Project.
However, now I'm in the very uncomfortable and awkward and exciting phase of trying to make this idea come out of my head and into the real world.
It isn't pretty.
In the 6 (!!) years that I've had this blog, I've tried to expose my insecurities, my doubts, my shortcomings and faults.
Not just because I have an affinity for self-deprecating humor (though I do), but because people exposing their faults and insecurities comforts me. Part of the "power" that insecurities hold is their isolating nature - I'm the "only" and the "most," everyone else is zooming through life on their ten-speed, and here I am in the back wobbling on my trike like an absolute tool.
But these things aren't true.
Everybody's struggling in one way or another. Everybody's got insecurities, doubts and shortcomings. And when I realize that, I don't feel so lonely or ashamed anymore. And it helps me look that thing in the eye that's scaring me, intimidating me from doing and becoming, and realize that it's not so powerful, because other people have been here and overcome it. I don't have to be ashamed that I'm here, and, more importantly, I don't have to stay here.
So, naturally, with this project, this big thing that I've never done, the temptation to drop it and run screaming from the possibilities is OH SO TEMPTING. Like chocolate cake with chocolate frosting tempting. just. one. bite.
Not gonna happen.
Instead, I'm going to have to face down those things that scare me:
2. asking for help.
Which is all to say, I need your help. You, who may browse this blog once in a while, get a chuckle, think I'm weird, whatever.
I've got 13 days to raise $1400. Right now, I'm about 1/3 of the way there. I only slightly want to hide under my bed.
Help me make my dream a reality. Help me to become the person I've always known I was, but was too scared to actually act out.
Support the Selfie Portrait Project on Kickstarter.
It's a little good karma into the world, and it will come back to you, for sure.
*I wanna say artist. I'm still working on my bravery ya'll.